Posted by Meshia from cache-mtc-ac03.proxy.aol.com on August 09, 19103 at 10:11:43:
My marriage has not been an easy one. I have been emotionally, mentally abused for years. At one point my husband was even physical. I have loved my husband since our first date 12 years ago and now that we are in our 10th year of marriage, I don't know what else to do. He has twice tried to leave because he wanted to either pursue other options, or because I didn't clean up enough, or because I spent too much time with my family. He has yet to acknowledge that any of his unhappiness is from within himself. I have prayed and prayed. I have been to therapy and suggested over and over that we attend counseling together or even go to church together. He refuses. At one point, he said I went to church too much and said I should stay home with him which I started doing. I thought we had taken a turn for the better about a month ago. For our tenth anniversary he insisted that we and our two sons take a cruise. We had a wonderful time. Upon our return we began to communicate as never before it was so refreshing. He said that he loved me and that he couldn't imagine life without me. But then just as suddenly he pick a minor argument that quickly became a big argument (I miscalculated our bank account by $1.23 in our favor) and he told me that not only did we no longer have a relationship but that he did not was not going to be my husband past the end of this year. For two years, every time he felt like being upset this is what he said because he knows how much it upsets me. For the past 3 weeks he has been staying out till almost sun up on the weekends leaving me and our sons home alone.
I'm sorry to be so long-winded but I just don't know how much more I can take. I'm trying to be steadfast and remain married. I keep asking for signs as to whether or not I should stay or file for divorce but I can't tell if I've missed my sign one way or the other. I do know that I have never been so unhappy. Please pray for all of us.